Walking through the refining fire of Christ.

These past few weeks, couple of months actually, I have been unable to get myself to the computer to write much less think clearly.

Have you ever gone through that refining fire that God has for you?  It is a hard road but well worth the pain and suffering when you get to the other side.

This past year has been one of many challenges.  As I was entering upon Christmas and now a new year to begin, it seemed to be the perfect time for God to break me down to nothing to build me back up again.  Well, what do you expect, we have a perfect God.

God has allowed my body to become weakened over the year with a severe virus I cannot shake and with mono.  If you have ever had mono, you'll know how weak and helpless it can leave you. It is not fun, feeling like you have the flu all the time with headaches, fever, body aches, sore throats off and on never knowing when it is going to show up again, if it will show up again.  It can last for weeks and even months.  Especially with 6 kids and a husband that do not understand the meaning of the word rest for mom.

However, it is right where God wanted me.  Weak, helpless, without direction, unable to even care for myself at times.  He needed me to cry out for help to Him and let Him know that He is the only one who truly understands me and that He is the only one I would lay down my life.

He needed me to admit that I could not do anything by myself.  But not only to cry out to Him but to let my family know that despite all the differences....we need each other - I need them to help me too....

Breaking my pride, forcing me to ask for help even if it is not giving, learning to forgive as our Lord forgives us - unconditionally, and to love no matter what....we are working here on earth for the Lord not for ourselves.  We are seeking to reach that eternal reward not the earthly rewards so many others cherish.  So yes, Lord, let me suffer know serving you, serving others....so I may be at peace with you in the end days.

I love you, Lord Jesus!  Thank you for breaking me down and building me back up.

Praise God!  All Glory and Honor be His forever and ever...



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