Discouragement

 Depression is a widely known ailment in our society.  We are all buzzing around with our "to do" lists and missing out on the greatest blessings.

I recently this year was diagnosed with severe depression.

We were at a lady's bible study earlier in the year and we were discussing depression.  Some women just don't get it while others can totally relate.  During my bouts of depression I have taken medicine to ease the black clouds but it was also during one of these bouts that I found Christ.  He had breathed fresh life into me.  At this particular bible study I confessed to taking meds but also had communicated that I learned how to lean on God and use His Word to comfort me instead of pills.

Confess and God shall allow the trial to begin.....this year has been very difficult.  I had found out that three woman who I have been close to over the years were diagnosed with cancer - two terminally.  My mother passed away unexpectedly.  My husband has been out of work.  My desire to return to school had been snuffed from me for the time being.  My older children were dealing with painful losses too on their father's side of the family.

When I became ill I assumed there must be something wrong with me or that my mono had returned from earlier in the year.  All was well on my tests.  Wooo, relief right?  No.  Why was I feeling nauseated, achy, tired, unjoyful, when I am rich beyond belief.

The doctor said "Mary, I believe you are suffering from a deep depression."  So I have been taken some medicine but it made me feel blah.  Like I belonged in a crazy house.  Although after a few days it took the nausea away but left me dry mouthed and speed talking.  So I stopped.

Where did this leave me?  Totally convicted.  What was wrong?  I had every right to be sad there was so much heartache around me.  But why was I not feeling God's comfort all the time.  Why was I so conflicted?

Had I left my first love?  I love the Lord Jesus with all my heart and all my soul and all my mind, but I still put Him on the back burner at times.  Sometimes this is hard to figure when you are still praying and reading His Word.  But are we just reading it and praying out of commitment or are we doing it with our heart, mind, and soul?

We have a choice.  We can either let the sadness overwhelm us or face the situation with courage and bring it before the One who can help us.

Live in peace today and everyday, brothers and sisters.

Mary

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