Dear God, I am confused, frustrated, and, yes, sometimes angry with you in my search for my some financial relief. I pray and I ask in my Lord Jesus' Name and when I believe I am hearing you correctly I follow your instructions to me. It seems to go well for awhile then just stops. I guess I must be taking things into my own hands after a while Lord. I grow inpatient in waiting for that big breakthrough. I want to climb faster than you are allowing me to, Lord. It does not make sense to me why you want me to wait.
I know that you know what is best for me. I know that wealth should be built slowly, but I am merely human and my time is not your time. Slow to me is even slower to you because each of your days is a 1,000 years to us. Please help me, Lord, to not lose faith and to not be so inpatient when it comes to waiting for the best time.
I am sorry, Lord, again, for not listen to all you were leading me to do. I am sorry, Lord, for being so selfish and greedy and prideful thinking I could finish something on my own. I am sorry, Lord, for not being patient and waiting for you to instruct me. I am sorry for going into debt in order to please myself. I am sorry, God, for not listen carefully. Please forgive me, Holy Father, for my lack of obedience and self control.
After all what is success, God? Does it mean having great wealth? Nice things? Extra money to spend? No it does not. That is worldly thinking, God. My success comes from you, Oh God and you have granted me much success in my life.
We have never had much, Lord, living check to check. Sometimes not knowing where the money would come from for bills or food and boom it was always there. You have sent angels with food, clothes, money for our needs and more. You have overflowed us with gifts that we were able to share our blessings with others. That is success! You have been ever faithful in your promise to always provide for us. Thank you, Father God.
You have given me awesome opportunity to share your Word with others, God, and that is what you ask of us. You remind me that I may not have as much as others material wise to give but I certainly have a lot to share about You to others and that is just as if not more important to share. That is success!
You have given me hope and love and comfort in stressful and depressing situations when I did not think I could climb back out of my black hole. That is success!
I have been successful in furthering your kingdom through the fruitfulness of my womb. You have blessed us with 9 beautiful children to share our love for you. I have been able to see 2 of them thus far come to Christ and the last of your little ones readying themselves for their commitment. That is success, Lord!
Thank you for so much success, Father God! I want to be ever faithful in my promise to you. Help me, Lord, to be more self-controlled. Open my eyes, ears, heart, and mind to your Word, Oh Lord, so that I may hear your plan for me and that I may be able to discern between what I am allowed to do and what I am to veer from. Help me, Father, stay on your path. The straight path.
I love you, Father God. You are my Rock and Redeemer. I willingly accept your discipline and will in my life. Faithfully Yours, Mary
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